OOTD: Obsessed with Skeletons

Apologies for not posting so much lately because I’ve been busy and I’m so sick of this cold weather! I’ve just been bundling up in whatever keeps me warm lately.

Skeleton Top by Boohoo
Top: Boohoo
Pants: Ebay

I called this post “obsessed with skeletons” because I’ve always had at least one skeleton-type shirt in my closet and have gone through so many over the years. This bodysuit is the most current one and it’s actually pretty comfy. It’s always fun breaking out my skeleton tops but also, it now feels like a decade-old tradition (because I got my first skeleton hoodie over a decade ago). Does anyone else have anything like that?

Sorry to keep this post short and a bit uninteresting but I thought I’d post to let you know I’m still here, just seriously waiting for this weather to warm up. I sincerely hope it does.

Until next time!

Posted on Tuesday, March 13, 2018
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OOTDs: an Attempt to be Elegant

I’m feeling a lot better than I did a few weeks ago. Sometimes time away from things can really help smooth things over. But in any event, I do have some pretty cute OOTDs to show you!

Wide-Legged Pants by Asfurah
Top: Boohoo
Pants: Asfurah
Shoes: Windsor

I absolutely love this blouse (which is actually a dress) that I got from Boohoo and I’ve liked wearing it a lot, so I decided to pair it with some awesomely comfortable wide-legged pants I got from Etsy! These pants are absolutely amazing and I’ve worn them with a variety of different tops from velvet blouses to tees so I’m sure they’ll be making an appearance here on the blog quite a few more times.

Victoria Top by Pinup Girl Clothing
Top: Pinup Girl Clothing
Skirt: Lady Sloth
Shoes: Forever 21

I wanted to break out my new blouse from PUG Clothing so I decided to pair it with an elegant skirt I’ve been wearing a lot recently. I really like the way the outfit turned out, elegant but also a bit edgy with the skeleton motif and the blocky boots. I definitely really liked this look.

Also, I decided on a fringe bang and I actually really like it! It’s nice to try something different every once in a while.

I hope everyone has been having a wonderful week and that this upcoming spring will treat you all well! Until next time!

Posted on Sunday, February 25, 2018
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Body Dysmorphia, pt 1

I have to be real here.

When I started this blog – the current version – I was at a pretty good place in my life. I’d conquered a tonne of my depression and anxiety. I’d been able to acquire a wardrobe that I loved and I was willing to learn more about blogging and blog photography. Was I perfect? No, not at all! But I was excited to have this small project and share small brands with the world and maybe meet some new people along the way. And actually, I’m very happy with this blog so far because it’s doing what it was supposed to: getting traffic to let people know about makeup and clothing brands.

So when I decided to get a complimentary Instagram account for the blog, that’s when the trouble started. Off the bat, I used “#fashionblogger” three times so my account was marked as spam, which means that I don’t appear in a lot of searches and I have to go through a weird verification process every time I want to log in. Everyone knows their algorithm sucks and that a little insane, but I could live with it. That slowed down a lot of my marketing and even though I’m not super concerned about follower count, I also am.

Hiding my True Feelings

Obviously Instagram is a purely visual social networking site. People follow you because your pictures are visually appealing and usually have a theme. I don’t really have a theme and my photos are nothing special and I get that. By itself, I don’t mind it, and then I explore the world of Insta. I see so many beautiful and talented ladies each day and I feel like I’m constantly discovering more and more of them, and it starts to make me think,
Wow, there are so many beautiful girls out there and I’m just… not. It’s different from seeing average-looking people on the streets every day.

But what makes me really feel awful is how someone could be so beautiful that they have thousands of followers and only 3 pictures. They have fan clubs. People draw their pictures. They get tonnes of comments saying, “Gorgeous,” “so pretty,” “beautiful,” and then there’s looking at my account and not seeing any of that at all and wondering, “wow, am I really that ugly?” I can improve my photo backgrounds, my lighting, my poses, and the image quality of what I post – but I can’t change my face.

For those of you who don’t know what body dysmorphia is, it’s a mental illness that distorts someone’s features in his/her own mind and also makes the person obsessive over fixing or hiding those features. I’ve struggled with it a lot growing up, hiding my face under my hair or even under my hands so people couldn’t see me. I couldn’t look in the mirror for several years and would use small mirrors to do my makeup, so I wouldn’t have to see my whole face. It is very much an illness that affects a large part of your life and even though I’ve been doing so well, I feel myself slipping under a world of cutthroat beauty. I don’t like looking in the mirror anymore or even taking pictures. I’ve even cried once or twice looking at them and I just don’t want to go back to letting this dysmorphia affect my life.

I am OK with myself especially since I’m living a life I want to. This year, I’m going to Spain and Japan and I actually have Valentine’s Day plans for this upcoming week. I have a great job and no reason to complain.
But I have to admit that I’m really starting to struggle with my self-image and I decided to write about it because I know I’m definitely not alone.

If you’d like to talk, you can always feel free to email me since blog comments are currently closed. I will definitely post about something more uplifting next week but for now, I just wanted to get this off my chest. Until next week!

Posted on Monday, February 12, 2018
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